But it never sticks. I have one off day and decide that I just can't do it. Ryan has always told me I have an all or nothing mentality. "Oh things didn't go how I planned? Well then I don't even care!" "If there's not enough time for me to shower and do my hair and makeup I might as well stay in my pajamas all day" "Oh, I ate a cookie while on a diet... Might as well eat the whole box and then some, since the day is obviously ruined"... He definitely has a point, and I have been like that as long as I can remember.
When I was in second grade I wanted to wear a black clip in my hair with matching fake glasses for school pictures. The morning of picture day came and I put on my fake glasses, then went to find the clip. It turned out my sister wanted to wear the clip too, and since it was "technically" hers, she had dibs. Instead of being happy with what I had I yelled "If I can't wear the clip then my outfit is RUINED!"... I then took off my glasses and broke them in two. I looked down to see my favourite glasses destroyed and proceeded to cry. A lot. Because now, not only did I not have the clip, I didn't have the glasses either. Go figure.
I may have grown up a lot since then, but I still haven't grown out of my all or nothing mentality. Not even close.
Which is why I decided that my theme and goal of 2013...
Finding a happy medium
No goals. No resolutions. No deadlines. Just me realizing that I don't have to be perfect... All I can do is try my best. "My best" meaning, Sometimes things just wont go my way. Sometimes I will fall short, but that is okay. All I have to do is pick myself back up again and keep going.
I need to be open to that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow.
Until "tomorrow" (whenever that may be ;)...)
Car.
